Day 9...That's it. Just Day 9

What a difference a day makes. I'm not completely bitch-less, but definitely much less bitchy than yesterday. I know this because not every thought that goes through my head today is about hurting someone, throwing things, or screaming at anything that moves. My head has also stopped spinning, and the projectile vomit has subsided for the most part.

Didn't put a patch on again today. I made it though yesterday without one, and didn't see the need to put another on today. I'm dealing OK. Still chewing the nicotine gum, but I'm proud to say that I've gone from the 4mg pieces to the 2mg pieces already. I know the box tells you to chew it for weeks and weeks, gradually stepping down. Same thing with the patches. But, I don't have that kind of time.

Actually, I do.

But, I don't want to. I want to be off this stuff and not taking in any nicotine at all as soon as possible. You could say that I'm on a crash course of assistive quitting. Part gradual, part cold-turkey. It's the Up In Smoke Program......HA!

Oooohhhh....I see my sarcasm and strange sense of humor is returning. This is a good sign.

Anyway, I can't honestly tell you where I'm at right now in my quit. Is it getting better? Is it still bad? Where do I go from here? I don't know. The only thing I do know is I don't want to smoke ever again, and I'll do whatever it takes to live that dream.

Oh, in case you're wondering where I get some of my inspiration from, check out www.becomeanex.org. Join. It's a great place to meet others in the same boat, who are struggling just as much, if not more, and some that have been there and have awesome advice for the "newbies".

Join, I say!

No excuses! Just do it!

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8 Days....I'm Being Tested

Oh boy.....

There is only one word to describe me today, and that is BITCH. Ask my husband. He'll tell ya. Ask my kids. They will agree and probably add a few choice words of their own.

It is terrible. I hate everyone and everything. I even took a nap this afternoon because I couldn't even stand myself.

Maybe it's the not smoking. Maybe it's the PMS. It's probably a combination of both, and it's not good. Or, maybe it's the fact that I didn't put a patch on today. Thought I'd try to go without it. Obviously, it was not a good idea.

Whatever it is, I sure hope it's better tomorrow, because if it's not, someone may end up getting hurt. You know, if they'd just leave me alone if they can't be supportive, things would be so much easier.

What is wrong with them? Don't they know that?

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